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Loosing yourself and others

You ever thought you meant more to a person than they actually did about you? To an extent when you are sure they aren’t even thinking about you? And everytime you try to fix/confront the issue – it just gets worse.

It hurts, it breaks you from the inside and all you want to do is get away from absolutely everyone. That’s what I am feeling right now. I thought we knew each other well, understood, cared – much more than acquaintances. Maybe we did, until recently. To be honest, it is not the first time this has happened; that said, it doesn’t get any easier even the second or third time around.

I have been sensing this for under a year now, and had gone through an array of emotions – from feeling left out, trying to decipher, holding on to the past, of course jealousy (yes, I accept that), and ultimately resorting to reclusion (but failed at it several times). While, admittedly, these do seem childish and scream of insecurities, these are reactions but the underlying cause is something I have been giving a thought to.

Once misunderstanding, twice mistake but third time surely a habit. How could you let/force so many people away from you but all under the same circumstamces? I can’t blame them. Deep down I think that I was designed this way – to be able to understand everyone but not have a single person get what I think.

I used to be fine with this, few years back. Somethings changed, and maybe I tried to change as well – and failed. I would just take one thing away from all of this, i.e., I have to find myself, the part of me which I gave it away too easily. Maybe it takes me weeks or month, but that is a journey I have to make.

Missing Part

Don’t forget me, he said
With heavy heart, broken voice and slowly instead
The words could barely make sense
And when he stared back at the face, he knew it was the end

Then She took his hand, said she’s sorry
You will find someone, though world around is scary
This is life, you don’t need to worry
You move on, and just remember our story

She said, I will forever and ever be yours to keep
I will always be there, for whenever there is a friend you need

In his heart, he knew it was the end
He said it’s alright, I understand, or pretend
As they last walked to the place where it all started and now comes the end

And he said, I will forever and ever be yours to keep
I will always be there, for whenever there is a friend you need

Then they left with heavy hearts
These lasting words to carry along as they depart
For he had given her a piece of the broken heart,
To live on with a hole inside, a missing part
And now they are miles apart

Jason Reeves – Reaching

An incredible song by Jason Reeves.. just read those words..

You’re inches from my fingertips
I’ve come as close as I can get
I’m reaching but the rest is up to you
Yeah, ’cause I don’t ever wanna miss
Being here with you like this
I’m trying but it’s all that I can do
I’m reaching but the rest is up to you

Now let the song take you away.

Pain is your own reality

“People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.”

Jim Morrison